Thursday, July 15, 2010


My doctor's office left me a message at home today, which I got after work. They said that Jacob's chromosomes were normal. So absolutely nothing was wrong with the way he developed. That brings me comfort. It makes me feel like I can grow a healthy baby. Whether or not I can keep one alive remains to be seen.

I don't know if that means the final autopsy result will arrive soon. My doctor is on vacation for a week now so it is another week of waiting before I can call and find out. I should be used to that now. The last time she called me at home, she was leaving to catch a plane and wanted me to get the anatomy ultrasound a week early, so I again had to wait and couldn't ask her my questions. But because of that ultrasound being moved up, I saw Jacob alive one last time. He moved so much and I got an excellent profile picture of him. If I had waited until May 26th for the ultrasound, he likely would have already been dead.

It was nice to come home to that message. It's strange, today at work I thought I should call home and check my messages, but I have done that so many times hoping that she would have called with some results and been disappointed each time, so I didn't bother.

One more piece of the puzzle has been placed.


Emily said...

I'm glad that information brings you peace. It does to a certain extent to me too, to know that Aidan was perfect and healthy (or would have been had his placenta and my uterus made a better connection). It's hard too though...because what if the next baby's chromosomes aren't normal...what the reverse happens...that the chromosomes aren't normal but the placenta is just ticky-boo? *Sigh*
But that won't happen right? That would just be too much right? What are the odds? Right?

Nicole said...

Well that's good news that you got one piece of the puzzle and that Jacob was perfect. I pray you get more answers soon. I know how terrible it feels not to know WHY. Hopefully the wait goes by quickly! Keep us posted!

mommy4boys said...

I am so sorry for your loss. My twin boys were born on June 1st also. Lucas stillborn and Caleb was with us for 25 hours.

I am glad that you received some reassuring information, even though it still leaves questions. It's a hard spot to be in. I'm sorry that you have to wait another week to talk to your doctor about the autopsy result.

Violet1122 said...

I'm so glad you got some of the information you need - I know how frustrating it is to wait. Knowing that Jacob's chromosomes were perfect must bring you so much peace.

Thanks for your kind comments on my blog. I think of you and Jacob every day. I hope you are able to get the answers you are looking for soon. Sending big hugs...

Lucid Anne said...

I'm so glad to hear that. <3