I finally got to sleep this morning around 3am. I woke up at 4:30am with my heart racing. I had another dream.
In my dream, I was pregnant, just like I should be now. I was so indescribably happy. I can't remember feeling that happy. I woke up and I still felt that happy. Then I reached down to rub my belly and I felt indescribable despair.
I don't think today is going to be a good day.