It was sometime during this week last year that I felt Jacob move for the first time and knew that it wasn't gas. The first time, it felt like a buttefly fluttering in my belly and quickly moved to definite kicks. I hate myself for not knowing the exact day. I didn't record it because I didn't think he was going to die, but I know it was just before 16 weeks.
I always felt him around noon. He'd give me a kick or nudge on my left side near my belly button. What I would give to feel that now and it not be a phantom kick, which I still get occasionally, and even seem to be getting more often lately. I don't want the phantom kicks to stop though, unless it is because I'm actually pregnant again.
I used to sit at my desk, watching the time as it approached noon and waited for his kick or punch. There was the odd day that I didn't get it, but I didn't worry too much because I knew that it was early and movements weren't supposed to be regular yet. As time went on, I started feeling him in the morning and at night too.
I miss him.