|15 weeks pregnant and so happy|
I think we went to Artisano's for lunch after and I chose my sandwich carefully to make sure it was a healthy one for my baby.
The first time back in the house, which was in August, after Jacob died, I didn't even want to go upstairs. As I stood on the spot that I was standing on in this picture, I cried. Then I went to the room that would have been his nursery and cried some more.
April 22, 2011
Today we went to church. I really tried to pay attention to the sermon, but just couldn't. I kept thinking about Jacob. There was a baby behind us who cried off and on. A reminder that we should have been there with a baby too. Not that we need any reminder.
Afterwards, we went to the garden. The flowers are slowly starting to grow.
Last weekend, Ted and I were in Zeller's looking at things for the garden and we found this:
We both thought it would be cute near the pond. It is solar and the shells light up at night.
So at night, I look out the back door window and see three little lights shining in the darkness.
We especially like it for who it can represent. Our three lost babies. There is no room for a 4th turtle. The next baby has to live.
I also found the necklace that I have been searching for for months last weekend. I couldn't stop smiling for about 20 minutes. I was so relieved. I kept thanking Jacob for helping me find it.
Feeling sad today, but that isn't anything new. Tomorrow is our family dinner, minus 3.