Monday, March 14, 2011

What should be, and what was

Today Jacob should have been 5 months old.

A year ago today, I was 10.5 weeks pregnant and I had a breakthrough. For weeks I had been lying down on the couch every night after work. I would get up to eat dinner, then lie down again, only getting up when I had to run to the bathroom to throw up and then until it was time to go to bed. Sometimes I would fall asleep on the couch, but mostly I just felt nauseous.

Lindsay came over a year ago today to watch a movie. She arrived with a bag of Werther's and some crackers. I thought it was so sweet of her to do that, to remember that the Werther's helped the nausea alot.

Ted, Lindsay and I watched the movie Up!. It was a really cute movie. I started off lying down on the couch, but about halfway through the movie, I felt well enough to sit up, so I watched the rest sitting on the couch. I know that doesn't seem like a big deal, sitting upright on the couch, but it was for me. It had been weeks since I'd been able to do it and it felt good.

4 comments:

Lindsey said...

I hope you had an okay day today. I know the anniversaries are hard. My Ella would have turned 6 months old on Saturday, so we are in very similar places.

cullensblessings said...

I am thinking of you today. All of these milestones are so hard to cross. I think that as difficult as they are, my biggest fears now come from trying to know where I will be when the next one comes.. one year.. will I still be TTC, will I have had another miscarriage, or will I be pregnant and riding that roller coaster for all it's worth....
sending love.. and popping a werther's with you!

Jill said...

Thinking of you. Five months was tough for me. xoxo

Drew's Parents said...

I can imagine what a huge step that was for you! Maybe a sign that second trimester was nearing and that some of the first trimester sickness could possibly be easing! I wish things could have turned out so differently for you and for precious Jacob. I think all we can do is embrace these special memories of our time with our boys. I am remembering Jacob every day. He is and always will be in my heart. <3 <3 <3