Monday, March 28, 2011

My dream

Dear Jacob,

Tonight I watched a documentary of Celine Dion's world tour. She would meet with her fans and they were in tears, saying how it was their dream to meet her and what a difference she made to their life.

She met a family with 3 boys. One of the boys needed a kidney and his mom gave him one of hers. Celine said that she knows that the mom would have given her heart if she had needed to and the mom cried and touched her little boys face.

We would have done anything to save you Jacob.

You were my dream, baby. You were my dream.
You changed my life. I miss you so much.

Tonight I feel like I did in the early days after you died. The tears just keep coming.

Love you forever and ever,

Mom

4 comments:

Elaine said...

I always start crying when I see those types of moments on shows. I had a complete breakdown watching a soap opera the other day because a child died and the mom said to the biological father "I'm sorry you never got to know your son." It's amazing what can still make me fall apart.
I feel the same way, we would have done anything for Blaine. Sick or healthy I want him home with us.

Michele said...

((hugs))

biojen said...

I have such a hard time with things like that. I can't help but think - why coudln't MY son be fixed? Why does she get to keep hers? It's so unfair that I have a hard time being happy for them. Then I feel horrible and selfish, of course.

I remember when I was getting close to the year mark. Every little thing would set me off. I'm thinking of you, it will get better. I'll remember you little ones.

Rhiannon said...

Thinking of you always, Dana. You would have and still would do anything to have Jacob back in your arms. Sending you lots of love and thinking about Jacob always. <3