As we were standing there, silently, Ted noticed a tiny bird in the tree that Jacob is buried under. It was a little brown bird right in the center. There are no leaves on the tree and the bird was well camouflaged and protected. I wondered if it was a sign from Jacob. I’ve never seen a bird in a tree like that before, but I haven’t really looked either. Then I thought of Angela and Charlotte, her little bird.
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| This picture was taken on February 5th, but that is the tree that the bird was in. We usually stand on the right side of the hedge, in the middle in front of the bench. That is where the footprints stopped on Monday. You can still see the rose that we put there on Christmas Day. It has been moved as it needed support from the hedge, but it is still there. |
Then I thought of the weekly company newsletter that my coworker sends out every Wednesday. She had requested photos from everyone from the long weekend for Wednesday's edition. I said to Ted that if we had taken a picture of both of us in front of the tree and added the caption “Dana and Ted visit their son Jacob’s resting place”, it probably would have been rejected. Too depressing.
When I got to work on Tuesday, I told my coworker about the photo we could have submitted and we laughed (I know, a bit of black humour) about it, knowing that a photo and caption like that wouldn’t have been allowed to run. Such is the life of a BLM. We have pictures of our baby, but few people want to see them.
7 comments:
It is so true and so heartbreaking. I think you should submit the picture anyway...that is your family and nothing to be ashamed of. Lots of love, my friend.
I also think you should submit the picture. Hope family day wan't too hard.
Yes, leave it to the liberals to make yet another day of the year for us to dread! lol
I know what you mean about the dark humour. I've gotten some weird looks and apprehensive smiles from people. I thik it shocks them that I can drop the words "dead baby" so easily. They don't get that that's just our world.
I know how you feel about the pic. It really is a juggling act deciding what is acceptable or appropriate and what isn't. I'm not lucky enough to have any pics of Blaine so I love to look at other moms, especially of babies around his size and age.
Grief is a reality of life. You spent time with your son and people should be able to see that. I think your photo is very peaceful and I appreciate you sharing it with us! All my love~
Family Day? That sounds difficult. Thanks for thinking of me and my sweet girl.
Thank you for your comment on my recent post. It was so very kind.
The picture of you by Jacob's tree is really breathtaking... Thinking of you...
I am glad that Jacob sent you a sign :-) I can completely relate to your dark humor. It is so sad how much truth there is in what you said about nobody wanting to see the pictures of our children. (Except BLMs, of course!) Our babies only make people sad and uncomfortable. We are denied life with our babies and all of the experiences that come along with that…including letting others know what you did on family day. Sending you big hugs as always!
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