Today I am getting the hysterosalpingogram
I am a little nervous about going to the hospital today. I'm not that nervous about the test, but I'm nervous about just being at the hospital because it is a Monday. It was a Monday that I found out that Jacob died and I went from the doctor's office to the hospital for the ultrasound and then I was admitted.
Today I will be going to my doctor's office to get the requisition form and then walking over to the hospital, just as I did on May 31st.
I want to stop associating new events with past events, but I can't seem to. I was saying this to Ted last night and he said to look at today as a new beginning, as part of the next baby's story, which it really is.
I am trying to do it. Why is it so hard to do?