Jacob's video

On Jacob's first birthday, Ted spent some time on the computer and then surprised me with a slideshow of the time we had with Jacob and the year after his birth, set to the Irie version of Tears in Heaven. I loved it and we watched it a few times that day (and I cried each time, of course). It gave me the idea to do a video that I could post here.

It was one year ago today that we buried Jacob's ashes in the Memorial Garden beside the church we were married in. I still can't believe it has been so long since we last held him in our arms.

Make an on-line slide show at www.OneTrueMedia.com

This morning we went to the infertility clinic (where we got good news and bad news). Then we went by my good friend's shop and we had a really good talk. I always feel better after seeing her.

Then we went to downtown Oakville and went to the garden. The flowers had been planted, the tree trimmed and it was beautiful. We both said that we don't feel the heavy, heavy sadness that we often feel when going there.  Then I felt guilty about that and worried that Jacob would somehow know and feel bad. Ted pointed out that I was at the garden, so he would know that I still care even if I wasn't crying and feeling devastated while there. 

Then we went to a store that I've been wanting to go to for awhile and found this:

I have been looking for something like this for awhile and this was just perfect.