I remember when this was first posted, it's a great post and you're a great speaker.
As someone who is just recently in the shallow end, I have to say, I thought the view here would be different. I thought, perhaps naively, that once I was pregnant that I could feel hopeful, and be happy once again. And I am happy, but I'm terrified, and I don't yet know how to let this baby into my heart the same way I was so willing to do with Jack. It's not only the fear of losing this one too, but also the fear I have of letting myself love someone in the same way I have reserved for Jack... I'm not sure how I could ever love someone as much as I do him, and in the same way that I loved him from the very second I knew he was there. I feel protective of that, of protecting that "love" that will only be his.
I don't know if that makes any sense, but it's how I feel. I do hope you get to swim over here and be a pregnant blm once again. And then bring that baby home, for keeps, forever.
Thank you for sharing your Spoken Word Blog post. I love that entry you read, I can relate to it. BTW, I thought I got your website address wrong on my blog reader since when I clicked on this post last time, it said the page didn't exist! I was beginning to think there was something wrong with my browser. But today it showed. Whew!
Here's to hoping for another rainbow that will take you to that shallow waters once again and make you stay there. <3
Beautiful choice of post to read. I can feel your hurt, and I do understand. I was in that place, and it hurt so much. I wasn't there for long, but those were long, dark days and they will forever haunt me. I was happy for the others, but so desperately wanted it for myself. And it stung, it really did. Thanks for taking part. All my love to you. xo
Goodness it's wonderful to hear your voice. I remember when your originally posted this, so lovely to hear it from you. Lots of love to you and your babies.
You did such a beautiful job reading Dana.. it is so nice to hear the voices behind these blogs. I am grateful to Angie for the project and so glad you joined in. Sending love...
Such a beautiful post, it's a difficult place to be. To be happy for others but yet . . it is painful not to be there yourself. I'm sorry that you were sent back to that deep end and for that feeling of isolation.
Remembering your dear Jacob and hoping with you and for you xo
Dana, that is so beautifully written and spoken! I heard a lot of myself in this post. I often feel alone as you describe and hearing your words made me feel less alone. Thank you for sharing.
Dana,that was amazingly done.I couldnt even type anything right away.For my tears wouldnt let me.For as u know me.I had lost 4 babies.And what u wrote and spoke was how i felt all those years.I really thought u would of been blessed with your take home rainbow.And i couldnt be sadder for u.I know that feeling of being alone while friends and family were pregnant and here i sat wishing it could of been me.Please baby girl.Dont ever give up.NOT EVER!!! For God will bless u honey.I know thats so so hard to believe.I have missed u so much.I love u and i still light Jacobs candle.And for your other sweet angels too.Please pass me a note on bbc.I have so much i want to say honey.You have a voice of an angel.I will never ever forget u or your angels honey.I hope we can talk soon.Loving hugs always
Thank you for sharing your video - you have a lovely rich, warm voice. I wish you could have stayed in the shallow end, I really do. I always feel as though losing a baby should exempt us all from any sort of further loss or infertility or complications and I hate that it doesn't. That it is possible to lose a precious baby and then lose again and I am sorry that it has been so for you.
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I remember when this was first posted, it's a great post and you're a great speaker.
As someone who is just recently in the shallow end, I have to say, I thought the view here would be different. I thought, perhaps naively, that once I was pregnant that I could feel hopeful, and be happy once again. And I am happy, but I'm terrified, and I don't yet know how to let this baby into my heart the same way I was so willing to do with Jack. It's not only the fear of losing this one too, but also the fear I have of letting myself love someone in the same way I have reserved for Jack... I'm not sure how I could ever love someone as much as I do him, and in the same way that I loved him from the very second I knew he was there. I feel protective of that, of protecting that "love" that will only be his.
I don't know if that makes any sense, but it's how I feel. I do hope you get to swim over here and be a pregnant blm once again. And then bring that baby home, for keeps, forever.
Thank you for sharing your Spoken Word Blog post. I love that entry you read, I can relate to it. BTW, I thought I got your website address wrong on my blog reader since when I clicked on this post last time, it said the page didn't exist! I was beginning to think there was something wrong with my browser. But today it showed. Whew!
Here's to hoping for another rainbow that will take you to that shallow waters once again and make you stay there. <3
Oh darlin your voice is beautiful! I'm so proud of you for doing this. :D
*high five*
Beautiful choice of post to read. I can feel your hurt, and I do understand. I was in that place, and it hurt so much. I wasn't there for long, but those were long, dark days and they will forever haunt me. I was happy for the others, but so desperately wanted it for myself. And it stung, it really did.
Thanks for taking part. All my love to you.
xo
beautifully done, my friend.
Goodness it's wonderful to hear your voice. I remember when your originally posted this, so lovely to hear it from you. Lots of love to you and your babies.
You did such a beautiful job reading Dana.. it is so nice to hear the voices behind these blogs. I am grateful to Angie for the project and so glad you joined in. Sending love...
Such a beautiful post, it's a difficult place to be. To be happy for others but yet . . it is painful not to be there yourself. I'm sorry that you were sent back to that deep end and for that feeling of isolation.
Remembering your dear Jacob and hoping with you and for you xo
Dana, that is so beautifully written and spoken! I heard a lot of myself in this post. I often feel alone as you describe and hearing your words made me feel less alone. Thank you for sharing.
Dana,that was amazingly done.I couldnt even type anything right away.For my tears wouldnt let me.For as u know me.I had lost 4 babies.And what u wrote and spoke was how i felt all those years.I really thought u would of been blessed with your take home rainbow.And i couldnt be sadder for u.I know that feeling of being alone while friends and family were pregnant and here i sat wishing it could of been me.Please baby girl.Dont ever give up.NOT EVER!!! For God will bless u honey.I know thats so so hard to believe.I have missed u so much.I love u and i still light Jacobs candle.And for your other sweet angels too.Please pass me a note on bbc.I have so much i want to say honey.You have a voice of an angel.I will never ever forget u or your angels honey.I hope we can talk soon.Loving hugs always
Thank you for sharing your video - you have a lovely rich, warm voice. I wish you could have stayed in the shallow end, I really do. I always feel as though losing a baby should exempt us all from any sort of further loss or infertility or complications and I hate that it doesn't. That it is possible to lose a precious baby and then lose again and I am sorry that it has been so for you.
This post made me nod in agreement when I read it then and cry as you read it now.
You are amazing.
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